This phrase, “in the midst of the messy,” has been going through my head for about a month now. I like it. Because I’m somewhat of a literature geek, I like the alliteration almost more than the meaning behind the words. Almost.
Our God loves us in the midst of the messiness of who we are. We are flawed and imperfect, and yet He is the potter who is at work on His clay, molding and shaping us into something a little less messy than we were yesterday.
For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus. (Philippians 1:6 NASB)
He is the One who began the work and He is the One who is continuing to work so hard to complete the work. He is the One who works! Hallelujah! All we can do is rest. Just be the lump of clay. Be the branch who abides in the vine. Be the guy lying down in green pastures, resting beside still waters.
What a glorious freedom we have in Christ Jesus! We who have turned to Him for His grace and mercy and have been adopted into His family, we who are the Israel of God (Galatians 6:16). We have freedom to live our lives, to be loved by Him, in the midst of the messiness that is US. 😀
Brothers and sisters, we need not work hard to please Him. He is already pleased with us (because we believed in Jesus Christ). We need not try to change ourselves (because He is the One who is working to perfect the work He began). And we need not attempt to clean up the messes in our lives, the ugliness that is our sinful flesh.
Don’t get me wrong, I delight in cleanliness and neatness and order (when it comes to earthly things). But when it comes to my relationship with the Lord God, my sanctification, my right-standing with Him, I live knowing that there is no work to do in that regard.
He loves me just where I am; just as I am . . . it makes me adore Him all the more!
I love Him because He first loved me.
We love him, because he first loved us. (1 John 4:19, KJV)
For in it the righteousness of God is revealed from faith to faith; as it is written, “BUT THE RIGHTEOUS man SHALL LIVE BY FAITH.” (Romans 1:17, NASB)
I’ve been texting with a friend, a sister in the Lord, about what it means to live by faith. We are both learning what it means to trust in God and to wrestle with Him; we are learning how to live by faith through the hard times of life, through the difficulties, the pain, the struggles, and the circumstances that tempt us to trust in the world or to trust in religion. Through all of this, through the storms of life, we are learning to remain steadfast and to trust in the Lord, to depend on Him for our strength. . .when we are obviously so weak.
I have been walking down this new path of freedom for 12 years, and my friend has been walking it for just a few, yet we are both learning the same thing . . . because the learning never ends. And in 20 or 40 years, I will still be learning to trust in the Lord – because He is infinite and I am depraved. While I remain on this cursed earth, I will grow to trust Him more and more as I experience the difficulties of life .
My friend and I began this texting discussion after both listening to a radio program by Aaron Budjen on “Living by Faith.” In his message, Aaron talks about Romans 1:17 and the quote from Habakkuk that says that the righteous man will live by faith.
“Behold, as for the proud one, His soul is not right within him; But the righteous will live by his faith.” (Habbakkuk 2:4)
Although I was saved 28 years ago, I spent 14 or 15 years not trusting in the Lord, even though I was born again and had a relationship with Him. I spent those years trusting in religion and trusting in my church. I was trusting in the acceptance of other people, in the attempt to earn their acceptance through working so hard doing ministry work.
I looked to and trusted in religion which is really just an aspect of the knowledge of good and evil. (The Lord God said not to eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, but we did, so the tree is a part of this world that we live in, it’s a part of this fallen world.) Although I was not necessarily doing evil, I actually was, because Jesus said there is only One who is good. He alone, God, is the only One who is good. Other than Him, there is none good.
So even though we try to live according to the knowledge of what is good, it ends up being a life of evil, because our motives are wrong. Our “good deeds” are often attempts to earn the acceptance of others, to earn the acceptance of God. We try to remain in a relationship with God by doing good works, repenting of our sin, asking God to forgive us, and then being firmly devoted to living a life of obedience . . . but all of that is a life of vanity and emptiness.
Being set free from such a life by discovering that I am a forgiven person, started me down a path that will never end. As long as I am in the flesh, I will always be discovering and anticipating and growing. Learning every day what it means to live by faith.
God can and will teach the truth to His children. He explained the gospel to me without me even asking Him to. The following is a journal entry from December 9, 1991, just three months after my salvation.
God gave me understanding today as I was taking a shower. Thank You, Jesus, my God. My wonderful, loving God! I didn’t even ask for this – but I needed it. Thank you, Holy Spirit, for knowing my needs. God revealed to me the fall of man.
Before sin, Adam and Eve were in perfect union with God. They had a perfect relationship. That is why and how God created us to be. Adam and Eve lived in perfect peace and happiness. Then Satan came along, stealing God’s serpent to speak through and tempted Adam and Eve to commit sin.
“No, God’s word is that we can’t do that.”
Satan said, “Oh, c’mon, you believe God’s word? Would he really punish you? He’s God. Did he really say that? C’mon, do what I say and you will know what evil is. Your eyes will be opened. You will know all things.”
O.K., they said. They were tempted and they followed and they sinned against their father’s word. God was grieved – he was hurt. Now they could see good and evil. Now they were unclean, unworthy of God.
God could not change what happened. He created us with the free will to choose him or to reject him. Adam and Eve chose to reject God. So the punishment for sin is death. Sin would have to lead to death. Sin had to be killed.
As Adam and Eve procreated, all their children were born as they were – separated from God by their sin. Nothing they could do could change that fact. We are born ungodly creatures. We are born as children of the devil. Our bodies are destined to death. Sin is contained inside our flesh and our soul. But God desires and yearns for his creation.
God does not want any of us to perish. But when he saw how sinful we had become, he sent a great flood and wiped out most everyone. That didn’t work. Then he sent us the 10 commandments and the Law spoken through prophets. It was written down and called Scripture. But the law couldn’t save us or take away our sinful flesh. God told us that he would send us a son. He said a child would be born by a virgin.
This child was born and he claimed to be God himself. But his words were rejected. He was hated and eventually was killed. The blood He shed on that cross fulfilled God’s word. That blood took away our sins. God rose from the dead and therefore overcame death. Satan was defeated, forever. But since we are sinful, we must now turn from our sin and accept God.
If we don’t believe that God’s blood was shed on the cross as a sacrifice to us, then how can we be saved? If we don’t believe, we are still living in sin. We remain as simply a creation that has rejected God.
When we come to believe in Jesus’ sacrifice and that God rose him from death, then we become God’s adopted child and heirs to his kingdom.
How are we saved? All one has to do to be saved and to have eternal life in Jesus Christ is to truly believe that Jesus was sent to save us from our sins. That takes a leap of faith. Believing that is all you have to do. Then, to secure your salvation he sends the Holy Spirit to live inside of you.
Once you have the Holy Spirit – you are saved and you know it. You may not realize it is the Holy Spirit at first, but you will feel a rebirth. You are no longer the same person. You have been made whiter than snow on the inside. God now can see us and have a relationship with us. Because, when God looks at you, he sees the pure blood of Jesus. You are now justified. You have been born-again.
All you have to do to be saved is to believe that Jesus was sent from God to die for us, and that he was raised from his death. You believe by faith, and you are saved through God’s grace. Ask God for the faith to believe. Ask God to reveal your sin to you.
God, help me to understand salvation. I want to share it with everyone. Lord, I want to be with you in heaven. I desire to love you, God. I want to obey.
(End of diary entry / December 9, 1991)
Again . . . I had only been saved for three months when I wrote this down. This diary entry from 1991 was inspired by God — He gave me His insight — yet, at the time, I did not have a complete understanding of the gospel; I did not fully understand Law versus Grace or the Old Covenant versus the New Covenant. And because I did not have a complete grasp on our total forgiveness in Christ Jesus, I would end up being led astray by legalistic teaching. I would end up spending the next 15 years trapped in a cage of deception. I explain my story of being led out of that cage here. (And for a much more detailed version, check out my testimony here.)