Empty and unsatisfied? . . . (That’s because you were created to be filled by HIM.)

Why do I get continually deceived into believing that the things of this world can fill me up and satisfy me? It always leads to disappointment and sadness and even despair. But, then my tender loving God gives me a nudge and reminds me that I feel “empty” because I was created to be filled by HIM; that only He can meet my deep longing for love and acceptance, meaning and purpose.

I’m a highly sensitive and overly emotional person. Maybe for that reason, the Lord God relates to me mainly through emotions. He has a unique relationship with each of His children, but with me and Him, there is a lot of crying. Sometimes I think that I have the spiritual gift of “crying His tears,” but I don’t remember seeing that one listed in Romans or Corinthians.

He also shares a lot of the “feel good” emotions with me too, so today I am copying a section from my diary about His joyous love!

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(Diary entry from September 14, 2016)

“You love me. My beloved is mine. You called me – You drew me to Yourself. You waited – You saved me. I received Your life. You made Yourself known. I became a new creation! I was amazed by the truth – by YOU. It was real – to be born again. It’s real!

I walked in the Spirit. I drifted. I became tempted by the Law. The devil engaged me in battle. He used the lie – if you only know what is good, and do that; and if you only know what is evil, and you avoid that, then you can be like God.

And I believed his lie! I gave it my all. I was zealous for Legalism.

I even moved away and went to Bible College. It got worse. I could then be devoted to legalism 7 days a week / 24 hours a day.

…I was proud. I was confident that I was sanctifying myself – what a FOOL.

But I had always wanted to get married… (And so I did.)

The early years of our marriage were hard. I didn’t feel cherished. I didn’t really feel loved. We just weren’t soul mates. We weren’t “made for each other.” …

I expected my husband to be a believer. He didn’t act like one. We didn’t share the same faith. Recently, he admitted that he may have faked it. May have lied. He really just wanted to get married.

I struggled a lot those 1st seven years. They were hard. So much I did not understand. My husband had given up trying to live a life that he could not live. Christianity became one big, huge burden. He threw it off completely when our 3rd-born was a baby. From 2002 – 2004 I went to church by myself. Downcast. Sad. Angry. Resentful. Frustrated. Questioning . . .

I was supposed to be a Christian. But I sure wasn’t acting like it. The emptiness and futility of my “Christian effort” was proving to be a waste. Why was I so hateful? Where was the love and kindness and forgiveness? It was like when someone realizes they are living in the Matrix. I was waking up. I was beginning to see the bars of my cage. My eyes were opening. I still could not see clearly.

I had doubts. I had questions. NO! It’s not possible that I am a prisoner of war. But, I was! It would take a few more years for me to see that fact clearly.

First, I had to quit church. In 2005, I stopped going to church.

Those two years were remarkable and eye-opening. Then in 2007, I found Bob George. Read his book, Classic Christianity.

Next, I found Aaron Budjen. Aaron. That mighty warrior for the Lord. Then I found out about his Bible Studies. But it was mainly through listening to his CD’s and radio programs – and by listening to his Radio Archive through his website that I began to GROW!

I began to grow up in every way. As soon as I grasped the fact that I was a forgiven person . . . the chains fell off. The prison cage fell away. The strongholds fell down. MY THINKING BECAME OBEDIENT TO CHRIST! 🙂

“Take every thought captive…”

The only way that is possible is to believe in the gospel. Believe in the simplicity of what He has done.

Oh! Hallelujah!

Hallelujah!

He first loved me! So I love Him! I love my brothers and sisters too! We are a family. 🙂

I love the way You are leading me, Lord. You are preparing the works for me to walk in. You lead me. You use me. You teach me.

(It’s too good to be true!)

But it IS true! It is real. The God of the Universe is my Lord and my friend!

Thank you Mighty Father!

Lisa

What is the meaning of the gospel?

The meaning of the gospel, the good news, is that Jesus Christ has finished the work of forgiveness. Because of the gospel, you are a forgiven person.

We heard the gospel message and we responded with faith: we believed in, relied on and put our trust in the gospel. Immediately, we were made into a new creation. We were born again!

We have not only received a second birth, but we have also been given a new identity. Our new identity is that of a forgiven person.

It is uncommon for a believer to understand this in the beginning of their new life with Jesus. Most of us spent years wandering in the wilderness of “works” trying to get forgiven. We spent years asking Him to forgive us; we continually repented and rededicated ourselves to a life of obedience.

But hopefully, by now, you have been set free from the legalistic way of life and have been set free from a religious mindset. Hopefully you have left behind the ‘wandering in the wilderness’ and have come to lie down in the green pastures of the Promised Land of Rest.

The book of Hebrews talks about this promised rest. The author tells us that there remains a rest, a Sabbath rest, for the people of God.

“For if Joshua had given them rest, then He would not afterward have spoken of another day. There remains therefore a rest for the people of God."

Hebrews 4:8,9

This rest occurs when we stop trying to get forgiven. You will find rest when you let go of that cursed life of wandering in circles in the wilderness of religion, of legalism, of Churchianity, of works-righteousness, or whatever you want to call it!

We enter His rest when we come to understand the true meaning of the gospel: that we are forgiven people.

Trust that Jesus has finished His work through His death, His burial and His resurrection: through the gospel. The work is finished, and He is RESTING!

Since God is resting, we may enter His rest as well.

For he who has entered His rest has himself also ceased from his works as God did from His.

Hebrews 4:10

P.S.: for more on this topic of forgiveness, please listen to this excellent audio series by Aaron Budjen of Living God Ministries.

Written December 29, 2021

YouTube video of my personal testimony

Hey guys!  I am posting a YouTube video here that I made detailing my journey from death to life, and then from legalism to grace.  I hope that it brings glory to God and that people can see how amazing He is — He can save anyone!  Finally, the title credit goes to John Bunyan for his fantastic book “Pilgrim’s Progress” which I think is pretty great.

Blog posted on March 29, 2020