Empty and unsatisfied? . . . (That’s because you were created to be filled by HIM.)

Why do I get continually deceived into believing that the things of this world can fill me up and satisfy me? It always leads to disappointment and sadness and even despair. But, then my tender loving God gives me a nudge and reminds me that I feel “empty” because I was created to be filled by HIM; that only He can meet my deep longing for love and acceptance, meaning and purpose.

I’m a highly sensitive and overly emotional person. Maybe for that reason, the Lord God relates to me mainly through emotions. He has a unique relationship with each of His children, but with me and Him, there is a lot of crying. Sometimes I think that I have the spiritual gift of “crying His tears,” but I don’t remember seeing that one listed in Romans or Corinthians.

He also shares a lot of the “feel good” emotions with me too, so today I am copying a section from my diary about His joyous love!

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(Diary entry from September 14, 2016)

“You love me. My beloved is mine. You called me – You drew me to Yourself. You waited – You saved me. I received Your life. You made Yourself known. I became a new creation! I was amazed by the truth – by YOU. It was real – to be born again. It’s real!

I walked in the Spirit. I drifted. I became tempted by the Law. The devil engaged me in battle. He used the lie – if you only know what is good, and do that; and if you only know what is evil, and you avoid that, then you can be like God.

And I believed his lie! I gave it my all. I was zealous for Legalism.

I even moved away and went to Bible College. It got worse. I could then be devoted to legalism 7 days a week / 24 hours a day.

…I was proud. I was confident that I was sanctifying myself – what a FOOL.

But I had always wanted to get married… (And so I did.)

The early years of our marriage were hard. I didn’t feel cherished. I didn’t really feel loved. We just weren’t soul mates. We weren’t “made for each other.” …

I expected my husband to be a believer. He didn’t act like one. We didn’t share the same faith. Recently, he admitted that he may have faked it. May have lied. He really just wanted to get married.

I struggled a lot those 1st seven years. They were hard. So much I did not understand. My husband had given up trying to live a life that he could not live. Christianity became one big, huge burden. He threw it off completely when our 3rd-born was a baby. From 2002 – 2004 I went to church by myself. Downcast. Sad. Angry. Resentful. Frustrated. Questioning . . .

I was supposed to be a Christian. But I sure wasn’t acting like it. The emptiness and futility of my “Christian effort” was proving to be a waste. Why was I so hateful? Where was the love and kindness and forgiveness? It was like when someone realizes they are living in the Matrix. I was waking up. I was beginning to see the bars of my cage. My eyes were opening. I still could not see clearly.

I had doubts. I had questions. NO! It’s not possible that I am a prisoner of war. But, I was! It would take a few more years for me to see that fact clearly.

First, I had to quit church. In 2005, I stopped going to church.

Those two years were remarkable and eye-opening. Then in 2007, I found Bob George. Read his book, Classic Christianity.

Next, I found Aaron Budjen. Aaron. That mighty warrior for the Lord. Then I found out about his Bible Studies. But it was mainly through listening to his CD’s and radio programs – and by listening to his Radio Archive through his website that I began to GROW!

I began to grow up in every way. As soon as I grasped the fact that I was a forgiven person . . . the chains fell off. The prison cage fell away. The strongholds fell down. MY THINKING BECAME OBEDIENT TO CHRIST! 🙂

“Take every thought captive…”

The only way that is possible is to believe in the gospel. Believe in the simplicity of what He has done.

Oh! Hallelujah!

Hallelujah!

He first loved me! So I love Him! I love my brothers and sisters too! We are a family. 🙂

I love the way You are leading me, Lord. You are preparing the works for me to walk in. You lead me. You use me. You teach me.

(It’s too good to be true!)

But it IS true! It is real. The God of the Universe is my Lord and my friend!

Thank you Mighty Father!

Lisa

He saved you in such a way that you will never be unsaved

By Aaron Budjen

He saved you in such a way that you will never be unsaved. This is the gospel:  He died for your sins so that He could restore to you the Holy Spirit, the Spirit of Life that had been lost in Adam. And through that restoration, through you receiving the free gift of the Holy Spirit, you are resurrected, you are made alive by the indwelling presence of His life, the life of God. And through that restoration and subsequent resurrection, you are saved from the condition of being spiritually dead. And because there is no sin left unforgiven, there is no sin that will ever cause the Holy Spirit to ever depart from within you ever again. And so by definition, the Holy Spirit indwelling within you permanently is the restoration of the life that had been lost in Adam permanently, so you have been resurrected permanently, which means that you have been saved forever; that you can never lose your salvation, because that is the very definition of salvation. (www.livinggodministries.net, Radio Archive, Verse by Verse teaching Through the Book of Hebrews, Hebrews Message 31, Hebrews 7:15-28 Law is Useless; transcription of minute 23:36 through minute 24:47)

The Hebrews series by Aaron Budjen

Wanting to learn more about the New Covenant? Listen to Aaron’s series of 63 messages in the book of Hebrews. Feeling like you don’t know your God very well? Listen to this series. Desiring a deeper understanding of your identity in Christ? Listen to this series.

You can find them in the Radio Archive section of his website LivingGodMinistries.net by scrolling all the way down to the bottom of the page. Or, you can just click here.

I’m currently on Message #12, although I have listened to the series at least twice before. The first time I heard these messages was back in 2008, and I remember that I would often immediately listen again to some of them; I still have a little piece of paper with notes telling me which messages needed to be listened to again.

I would take such notes because there was just something that I was not fully grasping. Aaron has a maturity in the Lord and a depth of understanding that is extremely rare; I wanted to understand what he understands. I wanted to know the Lord as well as he knows the Lord. I could tell that he was 100% sincere in sharing his heart, and I could tell that he was closer to the Lord than I was. Basically, Aaron was pointing me to a closer and more intimate relationship with my Jesus.

My heart swelled with excitement as I began to grow in grace and in the knowledge of my Lord Jesus Christ!

Here it is, five years later and as I listen to the Hebrews series again, I am astonished that I do know the Lord better! I HAVE drawn closer to my amazing heavenly Father! And doubt I will feel that “prompting” from Him to re-listen to any of these messages, because the Lord has been able to teach me so much already through Aaron.

As a citizen of Heaven, I am here asking my brothers and sisters to check out Aaron Budjen’s website, his Radio Archive . . . and, by the way, Aaron also conducts live Q&A sessions on Saturday evenings via his YouTube channel “Aaron Budjen Live,” and additionally a live Sunday morning message (currently in the Gospel of John.) He also has many archived videos worth listening to at his YT channel, “Aaron Budjen.”

God has given Aaron a ministry similar to that of the Apostle Paul. Let’s avail ourselves of his ministry and the many marvelous (free!) resources that our brother Aaron has so lovingly and so painstakingly created.

Written February 26, 2022